Went out with our daughters this weekend.
Joe
I know you saw from above, but I had to write down that I went to brooklyn again this weekend. YOu know I always loved brooklyn more than queens but it is not the same without knowing you are going to pick up the phone and call me to see what I am doing there.
I went to crystal and jimmy's apartmetn for the first time in a year! We never went over since you could not take their stairs in the walk up. She was sooo happy to have company again. Her house is all xmas decor..even the kitchen and bathroom curtains lol...you know how much she loves the holidays. Jimmy cooked and we watched xmas movies with my mom. I missed you so much, but said nothing to them. When they drove me home they mentioned your name a few times and it felt good to hear it. People seem to be afraid to talk about you and I want to hear your name since you are always a part of our lives.
I went with Nicole to the movies sunday morning..first time in six years! It was so hard for me. The sound drove my ears crazy and just walking from the car to the theatre even with my cane I was sooo dizzy. I needed your arm to hold onto and your support for the anxiety I was feeling as I tried to walk straight.
I am back in our house again, alone. Its monday and so hard to think of a week alone. I had problems on monday even when you were with me since I cannot work any longer but you always made me feel better. Now I have to learn to do it myself. I miss you so very very much. I sit in your desk chair and sit back like you did all the time to look over the mail (bills!). As I look at all the medical things coming in I realize how much you went through with tests and the trauma unit. I am so sorry you suffered so much and I was not there for two days. You made it sound like you were ok on the phone but i knew I had to get up there to see you. I am happy that the girls took me upstate to see you that day and I was able to sit with you and rub your forehead and hold your hand while you were in ICU. I would give anything to have taken the suffering you went through away. I just pray that you were not feeling all those things they did to you. I am sure you are so happy now in heaven and running around again without breathign problems. Come to me if you can and let me know you are feeling wonderful and that my dad is along side you and you guys are getting to know each other now. I love you sweetie so very much. ME~
I know you saw from above, but I had to write down that I went to brooklyn again this weekend. YOu know I always loved brooklyn more than queens but it is not the same without knowing you are going to pick up the phone and call me to see what I am doing there.
I went to crystal and jimmy's apartmetn for the first time in a year! We never went over since you could not take their stairs in the walk up. She was sooo happy to have company again. Her house is all xmas decor..even the kitchen and bathroom curtains lol...you know how much she loves the holidays. Jimmy cooked and we watched xmas movies with my mom. I missed you so much, but said nothing to them. When they drove me home they mentioned your name a few times and it felt good to hear it. People seem to be afraid to talk about you and I want to hear your name since you are always a part of our lives.
I went with Nicole to the movies sunday morning..first time in six years! It was so hard for me. The sound drove my ears crazy and just walking from the car to the theatre even with my cane I was sooo dizzy. I needed your arm to hold onto and your support for the anxiety I was feeling as I tried to walk straight.
I am back in our house again, alone. Its monday and so hard to think of a week alone. I had problems on monday even when you were with me since I cannot work any longer but you always made me feel better. Now I have to learn to do it myself. I miss you so very very much. I sit in your desk chair and sit back like you did all the time to look over the mail (bills!). As I look at all the medical things coming in I realize how much you went through with tests and the trauma unit. I am so sorry you suffered so much and I was not there for two days. You made it sound like you were ok on the phone but i knew I had to get up there to see you. I am happy that the girls took me upstate to see you that day and I was able to sit with you and rub your forehead and hold your hand while you were in ICU. I would give anything to have taken the suffering you went through away. I just pray that you were not feeling all those things they did to you. I am sure you are so happy now in heaven and running around again without breathign problems. Come to me if you can and let me know you are feeling wonderful and that my dad is along side you and you guys are getting to know each other now. I love you sweetie so very much. ME~
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