Went manic for a bit
I went full manic for a bit last night and I'm paying for it now. I'm tired, slightly depressed and glad I have this laptop so I can stay in bed but still communicate. I'm still mood swinging... I get bouts of energy and depression, but last night was crazy- I was all over the place mentally, I felt like I was shaking in my skin, my thoughts were going a million miles an hour. I took 2mg klonopin and that didn't help, so I took 2 more. That worked after a while and I fell asleep for 9 hours. I woke up today feeling tired and drained, but I still get bouts of energy and stuff. Hopefully soon I should be able to get out of bed and start my day. I ate a bit of soup, so I should be getting some energy soon.
I almost wrote an entry last night as I was manic, but I decided the best thing to do was to lie in bed and wait for the klonopin to work instead of encouraging the mania by staying up and writing. Not like it would have made any sense anyways. I remember thinking I had enough money to do anything I wanted, but didn't want to do things like buy a house- I was thinking traveling the world. And something about running around outside in my underwear. I was still sane enough to know that if I ran around outside naked I'd get in trouble, but somehow running around in just underwear would be okay. I don't claim to understand why I think the things I do when I'm manic (like I could jump off a balcony and roll and be okay) but that's just the nature of the disorder.
I almost wrote an entry last night as I was manic, but I decided the best thing to do was to lie in bed and wait for the klonopin to work instead of encouraging the mania by staying up and writing. Not like it would have made any sense anyways. I remember thinking I had enough money to do anything I wanted, but didn't want to do things like buy a house- I was thinking traveling the world. And something about running around outside in my underwear. I was still sane enough to know that if I ran around outside naked I'd get in trouble, but somehow running around in just underwear would be okay. I don't claim to understand why I think the things I do when I'm manic (like I could jump off a balcony and roll and be okay) but that's just the nature of the disorder.
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