well, what a thought

Well to day was nice, I really enjoyed my 4 year old step daughter.  She is an absolutely amazing little girl! It has been such a struggle for me to get pregnant, but lately I have delighted in her company becuase it allows me to practice being a mom.  We went and got these "magic" pills that turn into animals and she  was so thrilled! It turned into a huge learning experience for her.  I realize that God has me in her life for a reason.  I can provide those experiences that maybe her mom isn't knowledgable of.  I realize that even though I have been going through infertility, and being mad for all the women  who shouldn't be allowed to reproduce, but the gift that God can give me is to appreciate every moment with my children when he allows me tohave one. I went to a Family function and my cousins have so many kids and  they couldn't wait to be rid of them, and I went out and played with them and they didn't want me to leave! Kids need attention and love and its so sad that they don't receive it! My stepdaughter was all over me becuase I give her attention and love! God is doing such a work in me! I didn't use to feel like this so I know he is changing me!