Well that didn't last long.

My overwhelming joyous feeling of taking a road trip with the kids was totally squashed into a million pieces when he found out about it. My older kids were so excited that they were telling their friends on facebook not remembering that their dumbass dad could see what they were saying. So when he dropped Austin off after their one day a week visit he said to me "How do you think you can afford a road trip to Cali? Maybe I don't need to pay you any money this month since you have enough for a fun trip" I just looked at him and said " Well it doesn't matter if I am taking a trip around the freakin world you still have to pay"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You wanted your freedom to go find your self oe what ever well everything comes at a price. So enjoy your time alone all alone with no family and most of our friends and most of your family have written you off too. I'm going on this trip and the great thing is  I DON'T NEED YOUR PERMISSION OR APPROVAL TO DO IT!!!!!!!! SO SUCK IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I feel like I could climb mount everest right now in 22 years I never said what was really on my mind. I NEVER SPOKE UP even when I knew he was making a mistake I just sat back and watch the train wreck happen. Of course then I had to clean it all up after. He is spitting nails right now cause he can't call the shots. Omg I wish I had a camera to snap a picture of the look on his face....He is blowing up my voicemail as i'm typing this and texting me over and over and over again. Tonight i'm not afraid. Tonight I feel like I can do this without him. I wish I could bottle this feeling up and sprinkle it on me the next time i'm scared, lonely, sad, or just having a bad day ya know. Tonight I'M STRONG!!!!!!!