Well it is time for a new journey for me

Evening to anyone who is reading this,and may i add thank you for reading this as well, as you may or may not recall my name is Faye,and I am back on DS after a year as i said in my previous post me and hubby were at odds,well now the leaf has turned and i have asked hubby to get a lawyer yes thats right folks I am in the very beginning of what i doom to be a bitter divorce,after almost 18 years I am tired of the negativity,the mental/emotional abuse,and at 45 yrs of age and life being what it is (to short) i feel the need to make myself happy,instead of putting on the face of everything is fine,it is indeed not fine. I believe hubby is in deniel at this point,and doesnt believe me when i say i am done,we have no children which all in all is a blessing,I am at a crossroads at this point this week will be very hectic for me ,as i need to start looking for my own lawyer as well as a place to live,am i worried yes,am i scared yes,but i am strong,and i believe with the help of my family and friends both in the outside world and here on DS,I will persevere........This decision of mine is not a fly by night thing as i have been thinking about it for over a year,the people in divorce after 20yrs and also life after divorce groups are a very big help to me in the knowledge that i am not alone in this,their insight, views and opinions mean a great deal to me.....more than i believe they even know....I encourage any comments or advice,so please feel free to give it...Thanks again for listening.........Faye