"Well I've Been Afraid of Changes"

That lyric from the song "Landslide", really summed my life up in a nutshell this morning...as it did since ever since I can remember...and though I know that becoming like the new creation that God wants me to be, and has promised that I already am in His word, will take time and effot-I FINALLY feel that I've had a major spiritual breakthrough!!! Hallelujah!!!! ;D This is healing straight from the heart of the wonderful counseler, and I can't wait to tell my earthly counseler about it tommorow! For the first time in a long time, I am looking with hope to the journey ahead, and I can't tell you how good it feels!
I was walking home from the library, and thinking about how I felt like I was too busy to go to get my poor Grandma her book...and how angry and very very selfish I am naturally, and have been lately. I was considering how my good intentions to be different work for a max of about a half hour, and how much that sucks. Then it just clicked--give it to God!!! He wants me to grow, and gain the blessings for being Christlike, because He loves me like no one else can. He is happy to make me new, and take care of my concerns...only my Grandma has been right all along...I've never given Him a chance. So today I laid it all on the line, and gave Him my whole laundry list...and asked Him to fix me. It feels like the weight of the whole wide world has finally been lifted off my shoulders. :D :D :D
God is good! If you need a new start the way I did...just confess all your sin, and ask Him for healing in any way you need!
God bless you guys.