Well, fuck

The boyfriend broke up with me today. After I vowed to forget about him going away and just have fun, and be a goddamn perfect girlfriend for him. I'm so upset. I'm upset that I lost him, but I'm also upset that I lost his family in the process. I loved his dad, and his brother. I wanted to meet his mom and his sister. I wanted to plant my garden with him, I wanted to spend some time over spring break with him, I wanted to go to the fair with him.
We promised we'll still be friends, but it'll take a while and I know he'll want to stop talking for a while. And I don't do that. I cling to everything that's ever been dear to me. I've spent the past six hours (off and on) crying. I feel so pathetic.
I'm going to go watch Law & Order.