Welcome to my nightmare

First I want to apologize for all the spelling errors in my journals. I know I put the correct spelling and don't proof read before I enter my story. Looking back now, I see I better start proofreading cause this tablet thinks it knows more than me! 

Saturday I started to cook dad and me some eggs. Got the eggs out that my brother just got. Brown organic 18 eggs!! I noticed indents on top of them like a finger had pressed into the shell. At first I thought why did he buy broken eggs? Then I went into morgellons crazy mode. I just knew somehow something related did that!! I cooked one that seemed whole for dad and while he ate I went to the fridge and threw everything that was in it away even the freezer food. Took all the bins out got my clorox, borax and antibacterial products and proceeded to scrubbing the vermin out. Of course my brother thought I was crazy from throwing out all those eggs he got. How could I explain it to him? I told him I had Morgellons when he moved in with us and he just gave me "the look!" Y'all know that "look!" I told him and he chose not to pay attention to his crazy sister. 

I'm trying very hard not to run crazy down the road with this horrible disease. It plays tricks on me and sometimes I don't even trust my own mind. One thing I must do is get a better sleeping routine down. When I don't sleep it is worse. Main thing also is getting dental insurance. I have so much silver in my mouth. I know until I get all my teeth pulled there is no getting better.  I don't know if that is where it started but I do know silver teeth is horrible on your health.   There is another contact that had a hand in starting this awful disease in my body but that will be another story. 

My poor dad is suffering so. I try my best to help him. He has to have bed baths and he doesn't get his hair cut. I cut some of the length off but not enough to do any good. I can't do any real protocols on him because the herxheimer reaction probably be too much for him. I try to keep things real clean and I use essential oil diffuser in his room.  I don't know what else to do but pray. A pox on the person who transferred it to me. I had no idea. I feel so awful. God have mercy.