Weirdest Christmas EVER....

This has been the weirdest christmas ever.... since I can remember.... just nothing really celebatory about it. But it is what it is. 

my brother packed to go to a recovery support place. ... and the drive was about 5 hours away. He got twenty or ten minutes away from the place and turned around and went home. 

so there's that.... 

then yesterday morning, mom got up and he had left a note and said he would bre "gone for a while".... that he was not going to Lbb but did not say where he was going. in other words, ... he is just gone and we do not know where. he also said something about changing his phone number.... ? i do not know what that is all about

And having had mono... i have been out of the house one time  in a week. and i just went w/ hubby to get some iced tea and i sat in the car. But today i felt much better. i even took a shower and dressed and we took christmas pics in front of the fireplace. And we enjoyed the dogs all day.

I have my brother's doggy with me. he is a very very sweet little boy and Jassy has really enjoyed him. he is no problem at all. He has played w/ Jassy, so I've not had to worry about going to the dog park... fun. 

my vipkid contract is under review bc i had to cancel classes due to mono. but i went ahead and applied for gogokids and have an interview w/ them on sunday morning. so... we willl see.. i will have a job either way i think. and our insurance will get adjusted on jan 31st. 

i have spent a lot of time worrying about my brother.... being sad and all that crap... but it is time for me to just pray and let go. he is in God's hands. and that's the best place to be. 

i do not know if he will make it or not. but i know that i can't change anything about it. i just need to take each day as it comes and pray for God's grace and mercy for each day.. and for the strength for that day alone.

ginger xo

namaste