Weird reminders..

I was up north at my friends boyfriend's cottage a few hours from home this long weekend. It was weird because the cottage smelled VERY similar to the place me and my STBX stayed when we lived in Newfoundland. The memory at first was so nice, living there was such a good time in our marriage. Then i got sick to my stomach from an overload of thoughts and emotions. I got bombarded with thoughts of her with other people, doing all the special things we did, to someone eles. It really hit me hard for some reason. On the upside i did not let it interfear with any of the weekend. I had an amazing time and i got some time to hang out with one of my best and oldest friends from Highschool.  The one thing i did realize is how much i miss having someone to love. Someone to take care off. Someone to snuggle with in bed....make smile, make laugh..bahh..I want it so bad. Seeing my friend Pam and her boyfriend together, its so cute..I love it. Im so happy she`s happy and her boyfriend is a really good fella...he`s a very lucky man. It just made me wish i had that again. I did for about a year...maybe 2 with my Ex wife...But for about 5 years it wasnt a realationship...It was hell.