Weekend plans

I mowed my lot this morning while it was still cool. Cool for here anyway. I need to spend some time cutting out weeds and saplings from around the trailer and under my deck. It's crazy how fast grass grows here than other places I've lived. Kind of makes me think grass is greener here.

With my loneliness, I've had advice to try tinder. I haven't opened an account yet but I did try instagram. I met a lady on there that's older than me, has no job and is willing to do anything I want for a price so she can have gas money. Said she's doing this because she doesn't have a job now. Wants me to send $50 to her uncles cashapp before we hook up. I need to run his name because I think she's a prostitute and filling me with lies. She's not my type but I'm thinking she's cute enough for a bj. It's been a long time since I've been a man whore so I'm not really thinking I'll do that. Or her more like it. 

I'm going out again in a few hours and see who's going to be out tonight. I did notice there's a bar near where I work and thinking about checking it out after work this week. It's not about finding love it's finding physical attention. It's been about 2 years since I've been with a woman and I'm wanting that over doing it myself. There is a difference. I don't want a relationship right now because there's a lot that goes into that. Give and take, their needs over mine. I'm just not ready for that yet again. Honestly, I just want to f*ck. I don't want to take this issue into my own hands anymore. At least for a while. I'm not desperate but I do want to have fun. 

It's difficult finding someone up for this because everyone here seems to not be into that for religious reasons so I was advised to try tinder. I might try it out. What could go wrong? If anything I'll just look at the ladies and see who is up for this. Wish me luck.