Weekend journal

It is currently 3:18am and I cant sleep, I havent gone to sleep at all yet this evening and I dont see myself going to sleep at all, Tomorrow is going to suck I think

My podcast has been picking up lately. The episode last week has got the most listens out of the episodes, that is because the musician actually helped and got all his people to listen and it really shows coz the numbers jumped high, I just wish those listeners could keep listening every week

I was thinking how much I have hustled these past few weeks, With my podcast, my band management, My music blog etc, I have managed to make extra money from it so that is good but it is hard to make money in my line of work, I dont get a set salary so i have to work harder. I wish sometimes I could have a proper job where money is always promised end of the month. my dissablity makes that hard, and also since I broke my hip the receover has been so long I am kind of glad I am not at proper job because it would be bad trying to recover and ask for days off.

I have been worried about my hip and leg. I have an ulcer on my foot also and since I have bed and wheel chair bound the ulcer hasnt looked better because it actually had time to heal, so we decided to keep staying off it to heal the ulcer, but this does mean I havent walked on it, when my hip broke it effected my leg too, my leg is shorter than the other now, I also noticed my leg has lost a bit of feeling in it, So I am just hoping when I do start walking and putting pressure on it that I can walk etc.

anyway positive vibes please

Sorry this is a long one today 

Hugs