Weekend
Managed to talk a bit more today. I was the only Day Patient there today which made it easier to talk. I talked about Wednesday too which helped a bit.Therapy went quite well too. Didn't talk in detail about anything but I was able to talk more so I was satisfied.I did do something really bad today though...I took something with me in case of 'emergancy' today because I freaked out so much when I couldn't cut the other day. I know it was stupid but it just made me feel more in control. I knew it was there if I needed it, but in the end I didn't even consider it today. Didn't need to.I don't have anything planned for this weekend which is a little worrying. I'm going to try and stick to the schedule this weekend so I feel a bit safer. Just don't know what to do in the bits I'm supposed to be out for. Maybe I'll go out somewhere anyway. Not sure where though. Not used to going out spontaniously and on my own with no plan. Actually, that's an understatement. I DON'T do that.Oh well, keep you updated. Thank you for everyone's comments by the way. It's nice to know people are listening to my rambles.
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I\'m really glad you didn\'t cut. I do the same thing, have blades in different places just in case I need them. We both know how dangerous and self destructive that is and sometimes I manage to throw them away. But it is such a tough fight, isn\'t it.
I hope you find something fun to do this weekend. Do you like to read? Go to a cafe and take a good book. That way you keep busy and can watch other people which is always interesting.
I\'m so glad you made it through the day without hurting yourself! HUGE hugs to you hon:)