Wednesday October 16, 2013
Well, I must say, I feel much better today, I really needed you all and as usual, you all came through, I can only hope I am able to give support to any one of you.
Yesterday, I cried a lot at work, I started bringing pictures of Trevor to work, up until now, I didn't have any on my desk, I wanted to go into my bosses office and tell him how I felt, but I came here instead. Don't get me wrong, he would have been very understanding, but somehow, I feel now I would burden people other than you all or my loving husband, and daughters. I really think, people believe this pain and agony just stops. Well, it doesn't, and I will appreciate the good feeling days as best I can.
Hoping you all gain back your strength when needed...
Love to you all
Marylou
Yesterday, I cried a lot at work, I started bringing pictures of Trevor to work, up until now, I didn't have any on my desk, I wanted to go into my bosses office and tell him how I felt, but I came here instead. Don't get me wrong, he would have been very understanding, but somehow, I feel now I would burden people other than you all or my loving husband, and daughters. I really think, people believe this pain and agony just stops. Well, it doesn't, and I will appreciate the good feeling days as best I can.
Hoping you all gain back your strength when needed...
Love to you all
Marylou
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It will be 7 years this Christmas since my Matthew became an angel, I\'ve always had pics of him and my other children at work. Recently I changed jobs and with me came all my pictures. When people ask about my children I always speak about Matthew and let them know what happened. I then tell them about my other children. Sometimes it\'s good, and sometimes it\'s bad. People say stupid things because they don\'t know what to say, but I decided early to never leave Matthews life out of my life. So even on the days I still cry at work, I say, it\'s just a bad sad day for me. Thinking of you and Trevor and sending you hugs and love! Lynette
I do the same as Lynette,, got pics and talk about them and tell what happened,, even if I cry.... love ya!
We are here to support each other. That\'s what FMO is about. I could not survive this time in my life after my son died without my SOTHs
Others do not understand...but it is okay to let them see you struggle. We educate others by letting them know that it does not go away...that we just learn to live with our loss. I have to say...that early on I had to take down Alex\'s pic...it would suck me in and it was just too much. Gradually I put it back and now look into those eyes and cry sometimes...and other times smile. Love to you...Karen
Understanding your heart and hoping today is a gentle one. Those tears do come and just allow them to BE what they are...
Trevor will always be a vital part of your life and who you are and to have him remembered is the healing balm that is sorely needed. I adore it when others say my son\'s name and remember him well.
Glad you came here and feel the loving support that is always present. That IS the gift, isn\'t it?
Heartfelt (((hugs))
XO Joanie