Wednesday, May 6,2009

Today is a good day I am grateful to be alive and glad to see another day.  Sometimes I don't wake up feeling that way.  Today I am battling with pain in my knees.  I had my second knee replacement and it doesn't seem to be doing any better.  I had the surgery 12/9/08 and started to recovery nicely and then I got infection in my leg some type of way.  They did surgery and then it cleared up so I thought and then it got reinfected again and I had surgery again.  Now I have a small hole in my leg that I have to get packed every other day.  To top it off I am still depressed because my legs hurt me so bad I can't walk any type of distance so I don't go out anymore, the friends that I had have stopped coming around because I can't do like I use to.  My son is acting up in school not turning in his homework and basically concentrating on girls with a chance of being kicked out of school for failing his grade.  I have a psychiart that doesn't help me with my problem all she does is listen to me talk and never offer me any suggestions.I just wish I had friends and someone to vent to.  Well I guess I'll end now my show Top Model is about to come on.  Watching t.v. and eating seems like the only enjoyment that I have these days, but I'm getting fatter and fatter by the day.  I hope tommorrow will be a better day.  I guess I'll go and get me some pills to help this pain.