Wednesday ... Fresh n Clean

I was going to take it easy today. I slept in a little late, which was until 930 and then i got busy. I went thru almost all of the kitchen cabinets. I went thru the freezer and frig. I went thru the medicine cabinet/shelf.

I threw OUT 4 big bags... nearly 5 of just C.R.A.P. Stuff I didn't even want to donate bc it was so hodge podge and greasy and dirty. I threw out old mugs, glasses from garage sales, cups that were never used, utensils that I don't know how they work, junk from the junk drawer that I don't know how to use.... and don't know if all the parts are there. I never bake, so I kept only one set of measuring cups. All of those drawers are organized now. I sold my clay pot. I don't cook in it but once every 7 years. It doesn't make enough food to eat for hubby. It's too small. I threw out old plastic cups... scads of them that we haven't used in EVER... 

Hubby hasn't noticed... all except the frig. I cleaned out the frig. I wiped it all down and I took all the pics / there were about 60 pics on there / and all the magnets off and I wiped it all down on the outside, too.  I couldn't believe how dirty it was. It looks so clean and fresh w/ all that stuff off of it. Hubby did say he LIKED the pics on there... but I am sick of them. He isn't here all day and they have been there for years and years. I'm ready to MOVE on with life. I put them in an album. I chunked only the ones that were mine and that were torn or faded. 

I went thru 2 bedroom drawers and chunked stuff. I threw out some old make up.... 

I did sell 10 dollars worth of stuff. It's really not about the money, but about someone getting some use out of it. It has already served me well. What hubby doesn't know is I sold the kitchen hutch. Ive had it for years. I've painted it several times now and I am ready to move on.... I think that's the deal. I know he will be upset, but he will deal. They are supposed to come get it tomorrow.

Ive tried selling jewelry on Marketplace, but it doesn't sell. I think I will let my friend C go thru it. I have mine down to the bare essentials. I don't wear that much jewelry any more.

I have done EFT a BUNCH of times today.... About chronic fatigue, about loss ... about letting go of things I don't need.... It has really helped me. 

I am doing it all thru out the day... and i can feel my body relax just thinking about it. So, it's helping.

One woman named Kelly on youtube actually was cured from CFS w/ EFT ... tapping. It's free. It's relaxing. It's not a drug. I have just never been faithful with it like I am the yoga. 

I am getting ready to let go of a LOT of things. I can't explain it... It's like I'm embarking upon a journey... and this purging junk from my house is helping.

I read an article of Feng Shui. It talked about the flow of LIFE and how u have to purge and let go of things in order to gain and move... like water. And I am a water sign, so that makes a lot of sense to me. It's much harder for hubby. He is an earth sign. It takes an  earthquake to move him.... but I can't live his way any longer. I will have to leave before I try to conform again. I was in a hole and wanted to die. I will leave before i let myself get in that hole again. I need fresh. I need new. I need movement in my life and he has done everything he can to stop me. 

And he can't even tell me why. That's the sad part.

Well... I teach tomorrow a.m. 3 of my favorite students. Yay.

Nite friends.