Wednesday,another day where time is standing still

Good morning journal,the time is now 8:18am and I have been awake for slightly more than an hour after a night of somewhat disturbed sleep when our dogs were seemingly as restless as my own spirit.I let them go out back twice and waited in the darkness for them to do what they needed to do,and it struck me that the blanket of pitch black that enveloped us was somewhat similar to where my life is right now.My treatments by the various people supposedly looking after me has apparently ground to a halt right now,I have had no contact from my mental health team or the pulmonary rehab people,and my wheelchair is still conspicuous by it's absence in our home.I did attempt to contact my social worker and first point of contact with the mental health team by telephone at the start of the working week,only to be told that Carol Jolly,my contact,has now left the team to try her expertise elsewhere.So where does that leave me?,the young man I spoke to,Daniel,was pleasant enough,but he was unable to help except to say that I will be referred to a new social worker as soon as one becomes available,when will that be?,nobody knows,but Daniel thinks it will happen as soon as is humanely possible,now that's all well and good,but after the initial hopeful feeling that I got after Ms Jolly first contacted me,I am now left even more deflated and feeling more alone than before she made herself known to me.I really thought that she was a very caring and helpful person,and good at her job,and I trusted her,which isn't easy for me to do with anyone,and I'm sure she is the same good and caring person I took her to be,but apparently,she is not destined to carry on caring for me or my needs anymore,it is disheartening to say the least.Tomorrow is destined to be a very busy day for me,I have nothing in my diary for the morning,but at 3:45pm,I have to be at my diabetic clinic to have two lots of blood drawn,one for my diabetes check and another for mental health,now,I can see why blood is needed for checking my diabetes obviously,but why the mental health team require some is beyond me,but then again what do I know?. Financially,we are in a very serious and dire position,we have absolutely nothing in reserve and I don't visualize anything happening to ease our situation for another month at least,and only then if the disability people come down in our favor,we have done all we can to come to suitable arrangements with our creditors,but unfortunately some are easier to work with than others,and the ones that aren't?,well they can be very insistent and even threatening at times.We are considering me going down the route of a debt relief order,it is similar to being bankrupt,but that again costs money to do,but after we've paid to put that in place it will at least give us some respite and protection from our creditors until our finances are in a less unstable state and we are able to pay them off one or two at a time.We have an appointment shortly with the citizens advice bureau,they know exactly what's needed and how to go about putting it in place,but,until then,we are having to try to use every delaying tactic in the book that is known to us,and some that we are making up as we go along!. Well journal,that is just about all I have to report for now,so,until next time,we continue to trust in God and try to get through the day as best we can,may His love,guidance and peace continue to dwell in us and in our home.