Wednesday

I am just trying to get through the days right now.  I did sign up for a gym membership but the first day I went I was irritated by all the noise and activity around me.  As I get older, it's harder to be around people and I find myself escaping to my room in the house.  

I have lost all motivation for anything.  My job pays well but I dont know how long that will last.  I expect any day now I will be let go.  I am looking into school but the 18 month program is daunting for me at my age.  I cant believe this is where I am right now.  I wish something good would happen. I wish I could smile and laugh again.