wedding hell

I managed to attend my nephews wedding which was like climbing mount Everest as far as Im concerned. I painstakingly got my outfit together,jewellery and really made an effort as I felt this would help with giving me a sidgeon of confidence,as this would have been my first ever social occasion for years,having agoraphobia would have impacted on this so much. Last minute plans,were altered by my sister inlaw,which meant new transport arrangements,therefore eneded up missing half of the wedding service then part of the reception,therefore never appeared in the photos,and was mortified to say the lease. I put so much effort into the preparation,that it tore my heart out,besides being my favourite nephew just felt never do I want to try again...EVER...!!! How do I get over the huge diappointment and devastated feelings I have...?Life never works out for me....