Wedding day

I explained to my hubby that the reason I am standoffish with his son and the babies and pregnancy thing and the wedding is because it makes me too depressed. I will never see Jeff get married. Never see his pregnant wife. Never so many things. I am jeolous that I have to watch Michael and his son have these wonderful times together when everything I wanted for my son is shattered. It took me a long time to come to this conclusion. I just thought I was a bitch and didn't like them. In 10 hours they will be getting married and I am expected to go and be happy about it. I'd rather drive nails through my teeth.