Wed Sept 7

Today was a good day, no fighting or crying (yet) but its only 8pm and the nights are the hardest.  I have been on the verge of tears a few times today but am trying to be positive and realize that what I need has to come first.  I can not wallow in my sadness and ignore what needs to be dealt with.  I have to admit to myself that I was not happy, I had lost myself over the years and did not like the bitter, angry, bitchy person I was becoming.  I know I have to work towards finding myself again and becoming happy no matter what happens with my relationship.