Wed. 10/14/2015

Got in the shower after work and was trying to decide if I could remove some  of Marleans items.  I was planning on maybe taking a few things out when I got done.  the more I thought about it the more I upset I became.  Im hoping that I will be able to do this one day.  I dont want to be weird.  Going to go to the AA meeting again this evening.  I feel like I am going through life like a robot.  I dont think of anything other than my sweet wife,  and how much I miss her.  we where in the process of buying a new home when she went to the hospital.  everything was done other than the closing.  I go by that house everyday and it is still for sale. It breaks my heart that she and I will not be able to have that milestone we had worked so hard to get.  without her, i could never live there now.  I love you Marlene, and I miss you so very much.