weakness

I am really feeling weak when it comes to fostering ravyn. she is 2 and is testing me in more ways than i can handle. I somtimes have an erg to give up. I know i cant do that because they are family by blood and i couldnt just give them away but i dont know what else to do. I am sad. I am the tye of person who smiles non stop and my boyfriend and his family say i am not smiling rita anymore. 
 
 
I want to smile again...
not sure how i will find my smile but i am determined.
 
until next time.