Weepy......

I have wondered why why have I been weepy more lately.....Well,  no wonder it is 
18 months today since my baby went to Heaven....I can not imagine that I have not 
seen him, talked to him, held his hand, hear him laugh, help me with my computer
18 Months ago, How could it be 18 months when it seems like yesterday....How can it
be possible that my life was put on hold 18 months ago....How can it be that each 
minute, each hour for 18 months I have missed my son so much....How can it be that 
if this is how it feel this bad at 18 months....that in 36 weeks ....that 48 weeks....
and on and on....the hours...the days...the weeks....THE PAIN.....How I miss you my
son.....how I wish to just be with you again....just to have a talk....just to hear "I 
Love you.....It's this simple....if death is simple..........I MISS YOU MORE THAN I EVER
DID....I LOVE YOU AS MUCH AS I EVER DID.....MY PAIN IS AS DEEP AS IT EVER WAS..
EIGHTEEN MONTHS AND I AM JUST AS WEEPY AND SAD AS I WAS EIGHTEEN 
MONTHS AGO.....This has been the most difficult, longest journey I have ever 
Traveled.....and it will be until the day we see each other again.....I hope you
know, I hope you can feel my love for you is everlasting.....MISSING YOU KEN...
MY SON, MY BABY, MY FRIEND.....I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO MUCH....
One day at a time is all I can do....I will still cry....I will always be sad....I will
always miss you forever.....I would give anything if this has never happened
I would give anything to have taken you place...This just seems so unreal to
me that you should be gone before me....We should have had so many years
together, to share, to laugh, to talk, to grow old together....that is what we
should have had.....I love you my son....yesterday, today and forever......
Forever your mom, Forever your my son....I love you,,,,mom