Weeks.

I guess you can call this a general update. I haven't really done one of these that has told about my issues and fustration, But here it goes. I was asked to go to the homecomming dance with girls I don't really enjoy talking to non the less associate with. I don't know why it's such a hard choice to make. It would be best to say no, but I don't want to hurt anyones feelings. It's happened to me before and I felt like shit afterwards. I answered that, "I don't know if I am going yet". It was a moment thing and I had to lie. I don't know what gets into me. Do I really not want to go that bad? What caused me to use that excuse? The answer is *I don't know* I really truly don't know. I am so confused. I can't go with the person I want to go with because of personal reasons, and the fact she goes to a different school. Now just sitting here not doing anything about it isn't making the situation any better either. I told them that I would call them over the weekend, and instead got high and forgot. I never want that to be the reason why I don't do shit, but it was. My phone is broken anyway, It really is and I will just use that excuse. But I never like to be put in these situations and it might happen again and I still won't know what the fuck to do. It's the story of my life.