We've been Burying too many babies.

I wish I could allow myself to get pregnant. But reading all these posts by Angel moms who have lost their rainbows recently has terrified me to the pit of my stomach. I can't even imagine what they're going through, losing Sophia killed a big part of my heart, I was sure that I was going to die. I couldn't imagine doing that again, EVER. Maybe it's worth it though, to one day bring home a screaming healthy happy baby instead of a pamphlet of funeral homes. I'm sure lots of moms have thought that and instead have lost multiple babies. Maybe theyre braver than me. Hell, they are alot braver than me. I'm a chickenshit. But I can't help it, I can't bury another child.
 
Hugs and prayers to all you brave moms who had the guts to try again, whether or not you lost your rainbows, you're all amazing and strong and alot braver than I am.