We\'ll see how tonight goes

So tonight i am going to try and fix things with one of my dearest friend who i have mentioned in my blogs recently. I think that given whats happened this year, it might be the only opprtunity for me to tell this person whats going on and how this person doesnt realize how much i'm hurting. Me and this person have been friends since high school and the last time we didnt speak was because of a guy, not that we liked the same guy and one of us took him. I think its worth to save a friendship but it only depends on the situation. So we'll see how tonight goes.Some of my relatives are coming to visit in a few months and i havent seen them in a long time. I dont really speak to any one on my dads side besides my grandma because she is the only one that calls me. I am not mad at my uncles because they have a family and one of my uncles is on the road alot now so i cant really blame them. But my grandma is still the only one who calls to check in. My moms side of the family who live in texas, i've lost contact with them. I still think about them because when i was young we use to spend holidays together all the time so its hard. I miss my brother, it really bothers me he wont talk to me. I've let him know that he is loved, and missed. Only time will tell i guess.