we gotta keep on keeping on, even when times aren't as smooth as we'd like :)
Happy Saturday! :) Resting, after a wild morning/shopping adventure at walmart. things got a bit hectic out there today, but i'm ok, and happy to be resting up, enjoying some writing time :) i'm going to watch youtube videos today, and the new episode of ghost adventures :) Going to be home tomorrow, writing, and decorating my writing area :) Warm cozy friendship hugs :)
Hi angel friends! :) We hope everyone is doing well, and enjoying a nice saturday :) i'm settling into some nice writings, and resting. :) things got a bit hectic at the store today, but i'm alright, and got some cool stuff :) a hectic experience can make us feel a bit rattled, but i'm happy to be home, and resting up :) i look forward to have a writing day at home tomorrow, and beginning to decorate my writing area, with a March/Lucky Shamrocks theme :) it's gonna be so nice :) i look forward to sharing about my decorating :)
Shopping Today, i had been looking forward to going out to shop a bit, especially at walmart :) There's been a few items i wanted to buy, and needed to exchange my digital scale. i recently got one, but it hasn't worked well, it's been hard to get the scale to the settings, to check my weight. i thought about how it would be nice, to be able to exchange it, for a better one, that i wanted to get :) Things have been a bit busy here at home, and within the family, my mom and dad have been busy each day, with helping out my niece Alyssa, and also my sister Jenn. They help them with car rides, and i never want to burden my mom and dad on the weekends, especially when they want to rest a bit more, but lately, it's gotten a bit wild on the weekends too, when my sister Jenn and my niece Alyssa needing car rides, and it's been kinda hard, to plan anything on the weekend, with my mom and dad getting busier and busier. i've been worried about them, and wanting them, to get some free time to rest :) both my mom and dad have been on the go a lot.we've kinda made the best out of a short window of opportunity on saturday's, to go to the dollar store, and occasionally walmart. i think when so many schedules get intertwined together, it can get a bit hectic. my mom comes to me to talk, about how she's had some anxiety, and i've been able to give her some good support, on how to handle it :) She's been so thankful :) my mom and dad are awesome, they do so much for us, and i always want to make sure, they are remembering to take good care of themselves too :)
Alyssa, Kayla, and Taylynn went with my mom, dad, and i today, to walmart :) i did fairly well, with the experience, but had some moments, of feeling anxious, i guess, maybe it was due to it being busy, and also having my mom and dad on my mind, about how they've been so busy, that the only time they've been getting to rest, is during night time/sleeping. i'm hopeful things will settle down for them. i know, if Jenn and Mike get a car, and Alyssa can maybe get a car soon, i think things will then settle down a bit :) my mom and dad are super though, all that they have done, they are incredible, amazing role models, and they do so much. they are usually extremely busy during the week-days, and don't have much time to rest. they're always on the go, and they keep going and going, and going.
At walmart today, the car ride was nice as we went there :) i was thankful, we were able to easily exchange/trade in, the digital scale i had, they gave me over $22 credit on a walmart gift card :) i was hoping to find the digital scale i really wanted to get there :) Kayla, Taylynn, and Alyssa went shopping, and my mom, dad, and i browsed around the men's clothes section :) oh wow! i found, 2 really cool shirts! :) i found one for Holly, and i also bought one for myself :) they are nice thermal shirts, designed, and were on the clearance rack for only $3. :) i bought the shirts :) i was looking around at the jeans, it was nice, and enjoyable browsing around :)
my mom bought a new pair of sneakers, she really wanted to get a new pair :) We also looked at the electronics area :) i bought my cell phone card for the month of March :) i was doing ok, but just felt a bit uneasy, little on edge with my anxiety, more of a worried feeling, as to how wild times have been here at home lately, my mom and dad have been on my mind a lot. We looked at the collectible hotwheels cars, and i also went on the aisle, where the digital scales are :) i was so happy, i found a "health-o-meter scale, for only $18 :) i really wanted this one, it's LED light, and has been my favorite digital scale over the years :) the other scale, wouldn't work well, and it was frustrating, i don't think the other scale was accurate. We continued to browse around. my mom and Alyssa, were picking up items for my sister Lisa who is at work today. We went on some food aisles, i was hanging in there pretty well, it was busy, but i just felt like my nerves were a bit on edge. i felt a little off-balance, than usual, but i stayed strong. :) i texted with Holly and Lisa (Jobbie, JobPerson), and their texts helped bring me calmness :) i even pushed the car on the main aisle as we made our way to the checkouts :)
Alyssa, Kayla, and Taylynn went ahead of us at the checkout. there was an issue, with the checkout process. Kayla thought her items had been scanned, as they did seperate checkout/orders, and she ended up handing her money to the cashier, when Alyssa was, so it was a big mixup, and the cashier had to re-scan, all of the items, and it was a bit frustrating. my mom, dad, and i finally got a chance to checkout, it was busier around the checkout aisle, but i felt ok, and i stuck through it :) my dad wanted to know if i wanted to go out, as they weren't sure if i was doing ok, but i said, "i'm cool" and i stuck it out. :) i did ok. :) in the past, i probably would have had to go out, but i did well, i'm proud of how well i stuck with it, and stayed there :) it made me proud :) the checkout process took 20 minutes though, with the issue earlier that Kayla, and Alyssa had, but thankfully we finished up, and made it outside, that fresh air, even though cold and chilly, it felt good, and relaxing, soothing :) i helped put our stuff into our minivan, and we enjoyed our journey home :)
i sometimes get upset, when i'm out in the stores, and anxiety getting the best of me. i stand still, holding onto the cart, and looking around me. i see everyone, i wonder, if i'm the only one in those moments, experiencing anxiety. i long for those feelings of feeling free from it, natural, and free-will to feel normal. it happens sometimes, and those moments, keep me going. it can happen, becoming numb to the anxiety at times, feeling numb to it, i love those times, and it's why i battle it so hard, in the past, and present. i won't give in, and i won't back down, to anxiety. i'll take all it can give, and i'll keep getting back up and up, again and again, because it's worth it. i know i always won't numb to it, at all times, but the times i am numb to it, inspires me to keep battling it harder each time, until i'm ahead of it for good. i won't lose hope, and i won't stop fighting anxiety, like a sunflower in the wind. it can keep bringing it, as much as it wants, because i'm not backing down. never.
it's a good day, but still, feel a little bit like the wild busyness of times lately, is lingering, the busyness, of here at home, really has become the normal as of late, but hopefully soon, we can have a nice relaxing day, where maybe my mom , dad, and i could go to the supercenter together, or just for a relaxing car ride, in the countryside, or to get an iced tea :) it'll be nice :) my mom and dad appreciate me helping them a bit, i can tell, when they are too busy, and overworked. i like to be able to help them, with support, and i take care of our home, when they have to go out to give car rides, whether it's Jenn, or Alyssa, needing them, i take care of our home, and pets, and they are thankful for that :) i just hope things calm down a bit, and aren't so fast paced. over the years, i've been able to handle anxiety better, but i think this anxiety my mom and dad are having, is all new to them, and may be hard for them to handle each day. i worry about them. my mom talkes with me, about howo busy her and my dad have become, giving car rides, always on the go, and not having any time to just relax, and having a full day at home. it's been hard to see it happening more often lately, and i think the fast pace of everything, even has gotten me a bit anxious. We'll keep strong together though :) i told my mom, favors are fine, but when others are relying on my mom and dad too much, it's not good. we'll keep strong, and thank you all so very much, for being here for us, for all of your amazing support, encouragement, comforting care, and very special friendships, that bless us every day :) We deeply appreciate everything, with all of the love of our hearts :) BIG GROUP WARM FRIENDSHIP HUG :) Tomorrow, i'm gonna decorate my writing area for March, and going to do some writing :) There's many more great things to look forward too :) Tonight, Holly and i are going to watch videos on youtube, and the new episode of ghost adventures :)
-never lose hope :)
To Wildthing, Peaceful Gentle Moments of the day :) Wildthing, i've been hearing the bluejays singing outside today, with that golden sunshine :) Spring is on it's way :) Thinking of you, our dear friend :)
my mom says hi :) She says, "i hope everyone had a good day" :) awww! :) i'm proud of my mom and dad, for keeping strong :) We think of you all often :) You all give us strength, hope, and inspire us :) Thank you all, for being here for us :) We love you all very much :) We hope ev eryone is doing well, and having a nice saturday :)
Shopping! :) i got some nice items at the store today :) i got my cell phone card for the month of march :) i also was able to return/replace my digital scale, with a much better one, and i also bought 2 cool shirts, for Holly and i :) i got her, the Ninja turtles shirt, and i got myself, this cool blue shirt, that has a ghost adventures/theme :) i saw some St. Patrick's day shirts there too, for $4. :) i may buy one of those soon too :)
i got the ninja turtles shirt for Holly :)
i got this cool ghost adventures themed shirt for me. :) i'll wear it during winter, and halloween time :)
my new digital scale :) this health-o-meter brand, is my favorite :)
i'm ready to decorate my lucky shamrocks themed writing area :) i'm gonna begin to do some decorating tomorrow, and some writing too :) a good day to get back on track, balanced, and back to peacefulness :)
Hi angel friends! :) We hope everyone is doing well, and enjoying a nice saturday :) i'm settling into some nice writings, and resting. :) things got a bit hectic at the store today, but i'm alright, and got some cool stuff :) a hectic experience can make us feel a bit rattled, but i'm happy to be home, and resting up :) i look forward to have a writing day at home tomorrow, and beginning to decorate my writing area, with a March/Lucky Shamrocks theme :) it's gonna be so nice :) i look forward to sharing about my decorating :)
Shopping Today, i had been looking forward to going out to shop a bit, especially at walmart :) There's been a few items i wanted to buy, and needed to exchange my digital scale. i recently got one, but it hasn't worked well, it's been hard to get the scale to the settings, to check my weight. i thought about how it would be nice, to be able to exchange it, for a better one, that i wanted to get :) Things have been a bit busy here at home, and within the family, my mom and dad have been busy each day, with helping out my niece Alyssa, and also my sister Jenn. They help them with car rides, and i never want to burden my mom and dad on the weekends, especially when they want to rest a bit more, but lately, it's gotten a bit wild on the weekends too, when my sister Jenn and my niece Alyssa needing car rides, and it's been kinda hard, to plan anything on the weekend, with my mom and dad getting busier and busier. i've been worried about them, and wanting them, to get some free time to rest :) both my mom and dad have been on the go a lot.we've kinda made the best out of a short window of opportunity on saturday's, to go to the dollar store, and occasionally walmart. i think when so many schedules get intertwined together, it can get a bit hectic. my mom comes to me to talk, about how she's had some anxiety, and i've been able to give her some good support, on how to handle it :) She's been so thankful :) my mom and dad are awesome, they do so much for us, and i always want to make sure, they are remembering to take good care of themselves too :)
Alyssa, Kayla, and Taylynn went with my mom, dad, and i today, to walmart :) i did fairly well, with the experience, but had some moments, of feeling anxious, i guess, maybe it was due to it being busy, and also having my mom and dad on my mind, about how they've been so busy, that the only time they've been getting to rest, is during night time/sleeping. i'm hopeful things will settle down for them. i know, if Jenn and Mike get a car, and Alyssa can maybe get a car soon, i think things will then settle down a bit :) my mom and dad are super though, all that they have done, they are incredible, amazing role models, and they do so much. they are usually extremely busy during the week-days, and don't have much time to rest. they're always on the go, and they keep going and going, and going.
At walmart today, the car ride was nice as we went there :) i was thankful, we were able to easily exchange/trade in, the digital scale i had, they gave me over $22 credit on a walmart gift card :) i was hoping to find the digital scale i really wanted to get there :) Kayla, Taylynn, and Alyssa went shopping, and my mom, dad, and i browsed around the men's clothes section :) oh wow! i found, 2 really cool shirts! :) i found one for Holly, and i also bought one for myself :) they are nice thermal shirts, designed, and were on the clearance rack for only $3. :) i bought the shirts :) i was looking around at the jeans, it was nice, and enjoyable browsing around :)
my mom bought a new pair of sneakers, she really wanted to get a new pair :) We also looked at the electronics area :) i bought my cell phone card for the month of March :) i was doing ok, but just felt a bit uneasy, little on edge with my anxiety, more of a worried feeling, as to how wild times have been here at home lately, my mom and dad have been on my mind a lot. We looked at the collectible hotwheels cars, and i also went on the aisle, where the digital scales are :) i was so happy, i found a "health-o-meter scale, for only $18 :) i really wanted this one, it's LED light, and has been my favorite digital scale over the years :) the other scale, wouldn't work well, and it was frustrating, i don't think the other scale was accurate. We continued to browse around. my mom and Alyssa, were picking up items for my sister Lisa who is at work today. We went on some food aisles, i was hanging in there pretty well, it was busy, but i just felt like my nerves were a bit on edge. i felt a little off-balance, than usual, but i stayed strong. :) i texted with Holly and Lisa (Jobbie, JobPerson), and their texts helped bring me calmness :) i even pushed the car on the main aisle as we made our way to the checkouts :)
Alyssa, Kayla, and Taylynn went ahead of us at the checkout. there was an issue, with the checkout process. Kayla thought her items had been scanned, as they did seperate checkout/orders, and she ended up handing her money to the cashier, when Alyssa was, so it was a big mixup, and the cashier had to re-scan, all of the items, and it was a bit frustrating. my mom, dad, and i finally got a chance to checkout, it was busier around the checkout aisle, but i felt ok, and i stuck through it :) my dad wanted to know if i wanted to go out, as they weren't sure if i was doing ok, but i said, "i'm cool" and i stuck it out. :) i did ok. :) in the past, i probably would have had to go out, but i did well, i'm proud of how well i stuck with it, and stayed there :) it made me proud :) the checkout process took 20 minutes though, with the issue earlier that Kayla, and Alyssa had, but thankfully we finished up, and made it outside, that fresh air, even though cold and chilly, it felt good, and relaxing, soothing :) i helped put our stuff into our minivan, and we enjoyed our journey home :)
i sometimes get upset, when i'm out in the stores, and anxiety getting the best of me. i stand still, holding onto the cart, and looking around me. i see everyone, i wonder, if i'm the only one in those moments, experiencing anxiety. i long for those feelings of feeling free from it, natural, and free-will to feel normal. it happens sometimes, and those moments, keep me going. it can happen, becoming numb to the anxiety at times, feeling numb to it, i love those times, and it's why i battle it so hard, in the past, and present. i won't give in, and i won't back down, to anxiety. i'll take all it can give, and i'll keep getting back up and up, again and again, because it's worth it. i know i always won't numb to it, at all times, but the times i am numb to it, inspires me to keep battling it harder each time, until i'm ahead of it for good. i won't lose hope, and i won't stop fighting anxiety, like a sunflower in the wind. it can keep bringing it, as much as it wants, because i'm not backing down. never.
it's a good day, but still, feel a little bit like the wild busyness of times lately, is lingering, the busyness, of here at home, really has become the normal as of late, but hopefully soon, we can have a nice relaxing day, where maybe my mom , dad, and i could go to the supercenter together, or just for a relaxing car ride, in the countryside, or to get an iced tea :) it'll be nice :) my mom and dad appreciate me helping them a bit, i can tell, when they are too busy, and overworked. i like to be able to help them, with support, and i take care of our home, when they have to go out to give car rides, whether it's Jenn, or Alyssa, needing them, i take care of our home, and pets, and they are thankful for that :) i just hope things calm down a bit, and aren't so fast paced. over the years, i've been able to handle anxiety better, but i think this anxiety my mom and dad are having, is all new to them, and may be hard for them to handle each day. i worry about them. my mom talkes with me, about howo busy her and my dad have become, giving car rides, always on the go, and not having any time to just relax, and having a full day at home. it's been hard to see it happening more often lately, and i think the fast pace of everything, even has gotten me a bit anxious. We'll keep strong together though :) i told my mom, favors are fine, but when others are relying on my mom and dad too much, it's not good. we'll keep strong, and thank you all so very much, for being here for us, for all of your amazing support, encouragement, comforting care, and very special friendships, that bless us every day :) We deeply appreciate everything, with all of the love of our hearts :) BIG GROUP WARM FRIENDSHIP HUG :) Tomorrow, i'm gonna decorate my writing area for March, and going to do some writing :) There's many more great things to look forward too :) Tonight, Holly and i are going to watch videos on youtube, and the new episode of ghost adventures :)
-never lose hope :)
To Wildthing, Peaceful Gentle Moments of the day :) Wildthing, i've been hearing the bluejays singing outside today, with that golden sunshine :) Spring is on it's way :) Thinking of you, our dear friend :)
my mom says hi :) She says, "i hope everyone had a good day" :) awww! :) i'm proud of my mom and dad, for keeping strong :) We think of you all often :) You all give us strength, hope, and inspire us :) Thank you all, for being here for us :) We love you all very much :) We hope ev eryone is doing well, and having a nice saturday :)
Shopping! :) i got some nice items at the store today :) i got my cell phone card for the month of march :) i also was able to return/replace my digital scale, with a much better one, and i also bought 2 cool shirts, for Holly and i :) i got her, the Ninja turtles shirt, and i got myself, this cool blue shirt, that has a ghost adventures/theme :) i saw some St. Patrick's day shirts there too, for $4. :) i may buy one of those soon too :)
i got the ninja turtles shirt for Holly :)
i got this cool ghost adventures themed shirt for me. :) i'll wear it during winter, and halloween time :)
my new digital scale :) this health-o-meter brand, is my favorite :)
i'm ready to decorate my lucky shamrocks themed writing area :) i'm gonna begin to do some decorating tomorrow, and some writing too :) a good day to get back on track, balanced, and back to peacefulness :)
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Hi Chris Glad you and your family had a nice day.You did very well at the store and got some nice items Good for you. Sorry things have been so crazy busy at home.Hope things calm down soon. I agree that your family relies on your parents for rides too much, Time for them to save their money for cars and be on their own a bit. Your parents need down time too.Thanks for al my nice hugs today.Have a good evening Hugs to everyone-Stephanie
Darling Chris... i know it is easy to let the hectic place rock your world in a bad way, but i like that you have the COURAGE to PRESS FORWARD!!! I guess I\'ve learned lately that every day can\'t be a diamond and some are just rocks, but the COURAGE TO PRESS FORWARD is THE IMPORTANT THING!!! DON\'T GIVE UP and KEEP ON KEEPING ON!!! THE ONE thing that we ALL CAN COUNT ON IS THAT EVERYTHING CHANGES!!! We just have to ROLL WITH THOSE CHANGES!!! You pressed forward AND THAT IS A SUCCESS!!!
I too went to Walmart today and Walgreens... It was a difficult day for me because my legz hurt really badly... I too pressed forward and maybe I should not have done that, but I got some good exercise walking in Walmart. I needed to GET OFF THE FARM to see OTHER PEOPLE so it was worth it to suffer a bit with pain. The more I walked, the better I felt so it all worked out for the best!!!
love to you all in CT and especially to YOU MY BRAVE FRIEND!!! NEVER GIVE UP AND NEVER GIVE IN!!! FAITH NOT FEAR!!! xoxoxo Cj
Hi Chris....Glad you were able to push on through despite your anxiety. I know how rough that can be. Glad your Mom came and talked with you about her feelings of anxiety. You whole family has been more busy than usual and I think it is catching up with you all. I like your new scale,t-shirts. Hope that the rest of your weekend is peaceful for you all as a family. Had a green tea frappe and watched two new movies last night. They weren\'t my cup of tea as they say. Say Hello to Holly and the rest of your beautiful family. You did good my friend despite your anxiety. Much Love/Hugs/Greenies
Dear Chris!I am so very proud of you and all your great Accomplishments! Anxiety can be very hard but You pushed on forward! :-) Congratulations!
I am so sorry things are not so easy on your Parents.I wish I could make
it easier on your parents! You are all in my thoughts and prayers! Every Day
is a New Beginning! :-) Sending best wishes your way,a;ways! :-)
Love and tons of Hugs,
Maria
Good job today Chris. Everyone deals with nerves at times. Yours is just a bigger challenge for u in areas like crowded stores. I don\'t feel anxiety then, but I do when making presentation to very large crowds of people. So when we can overcome them in the moment...how sweet the reward is....right?
Hi Chris ! I like those tee\'s you got.I am going to see if our Walmart has any of those 4. Saint Patrick\'s day tees, I want one, ha, ha ! I hope your parents are not being too stressed , it does sound hectic here of late for everyone.I am so glad they have your help with the house and cooking, animal care etc.I have a support group on here , the name of it is \"Reason\'s to Keep On Keeping On ! \" ha, ha ! When I seen that in your journal it tickled me. Would be happy to have you check out my group, it is full of inspiring posts. I hope you have a great, less stressful Sunday. Love to you and your sweet loved ones.
Dear Chris you are an inspiration to me.I to have had so many battles with my anxiety and agoraphobia. I have came a long way but it is a constant,constant battle. I feel the same way .I will never give up! On the bright side you really got some good buys. I love the two shirts you bought.