Way Ups & Way Downs
Well the 1st step on hubbies repeated road with the prostate thing has been done. He had the biopsy Thurs afternoon. The dr's office will call us in abt 3 wks. In the mean time they are contacting the cancer clinic dr with the recommendation that two other tests shd be done, one being a bone scan & can't remember the other now. The reason being of course to see if there's anything there that has spread elsewhere.
I have moments where I feel super strong, together, under control, focusing on prayer & faith. Yet in the blink of an eye there's that old evil negative & all it's trimmings that come knocking. Some moments it feels like it takes all my strength to slam lifes door in his face.
I'm so so so trying to keep only a positive aura around us & to put positive out to the universe but boy it gets hard sometimes. I guess right at this moment I felt I all of a sudden needed to get something down in print so here I am.
Lupus wise I'm holding my own but then again I'm still not quite off prednisone (maybe by the end of July) & I'm still on methotrexate so I can't honestly say whats what. I know I've upped the appointments with my reflexologist to every 2nd week as I feel her ability to keep my whole persona well balanced could be crucial right now.
Anywho I guess thats abt it. I just felt the need to get some thoughts down in print. I could swear(not really) that there was something else I wanted to include here but for the life of me it escapes me so I guess I'll sign off for now.
I have moments where I feel super strong, together, under control, focusing on prayer & faith. Yet in the blink of an eye there's that old evil negative & all it's trimmings that come knocking. Some moments it feels like it takes all my strength to slam lifes door in his face.
I'm so so so trying to keep only a positive aura around us & to put positive out to the universe but boy it gets hard sometimes. I guess right at this moment I felt I all of a sudden needed to get something down in print so here I am.
Lupus wise I'm holding my own but then again I'm still not quite off prednisone (maybe by the end of July) & I'm still on methotrexate so I can't honestly say whats what. I know I've upped the appointments with my reflexologist to every 2nd week as I feel her ability to keep my whole persona well balanced could be crucial right now.
Anywho I guess thats abt it. I just felt the need to get some thoughts down in print. I could swear(not really) that there was something else I wanted to include here but for the life of me it escapes me so I guess I'll sign off for now.
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I think having ups and downs is really typical, but I know that doesn\'t make it any easier. I hope hubby is feeling OK. I think being positive and hopeful is very good for overall health and for recovery, so I hope you can keep that going. ; ) I really believe God has your back my friend. I pray that you both have that peace that passes all understanding and that your positive moments far outweigh any negative ones and that you feel lifted up ... just because others are praying for you.
You know ... I\'m on mtx too and I can never say what\'s what, so I get that! They increased mine a smidge to see if it would help with my energy and I do think it did. Mtx is weird that way. That\'s another thing I try to think positive about b/c it would be so easy to go the other way. Somehow intentionally thinking positive about it has really helped.
Please keep us posted! xoxo
Don\'t you feel better putting your thoughts down here? Journaling / venting / sharing is such a wonderful therapy and release for us all. Hope all goes okay with hubbie and know you\'ll keep us informed. Attitude is so important when you\'re not feeling well and I commend you for trying to keep as positive as possible (my mom is negative about everything). I also believe that a better attitude can be more helpful and meaningful. Thanks for sharing and please keep on keeping on :) xo
Pat, Please ask Pastor Martin to anoint Mel with healing oil. It will make you both feel a lot calmer about things. I will be praying for Mel. I will also put his name on a pray list at my church. I am here always for you.. Do not hesitate to call me. Remember God will take care Mel. Keep your faith and pray and pray for your beloved. If there is any hing else I can do please let me know.. Love xoxoxoxo