Watching the movie Revolutionary Road

with Leonardo DiCaprio and Kate Winslet in their first co-starring vehicle since their sinking ship effort, Titanic.  Made me realize just how complex marriage and relationships are.  External forces like work stress, coupled with boredom and lack of passion ntruded on what was once "love", and it became a horrible, attacking, hurting, demoralizing, dehumanizing experience.  Never been married, but have been in love, and this story really took me to a dark place, made me realize my own fallibilities...my passion comes and goes...I try to surmount it with work and exercise...when I really, truly, deeply love someone, that feeling takes me to a very dark place within my own heart.  Don't want to be the covetous, possessive type, but it happens.  Something dark takes over, and, because I don't want to live in the darkness forever, I reach into the other person for light, and all it does is drag them into my darkness (or brings out HER darkness).  I then feel guilty for that, withdraw, regroup, try to make up for the void by becoming aggressive, channel that passion into something (or someone) else and repeat the process.  If I could just settle into the blackness and be content...it's just so dark there...