Watching

Watching
 
I feel like my cat watching out the window
                       watching it snow
Her tail twitches with antisipation
                       with excitement
As she watches the snow fall
BIG BEAUTIFUL FLAKES
But she wont go outside and play in it
Just like me in my self imposed prison
 
I look at the world through different glasses now,
                         Since my son's death
I watch people, but dont want much interaction
I yearn to go out but once out
                       realize that's not what I want at all
I wont find what I'm longing for out there
                      I can't find my son there
So I watch, and people are gross
    Why don't people watch their hands?
    Why do they let their son stick his hands down his pants
             and then touch EVERYTHING
    Why do they yell constantly at their children?
             Here's some soda and sugar,
             Now, WHY, can't you be quiet?!
What happened to happy engaged families?
              Did they ever exist?
 
So I wait and watch out of my glasses for a clean peaceful world
    And I wait and watch
          like my cat who will never play in the snow...

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deleted_user
deleted_user

Finn is already having such an amazing family. A Mommy who will make sure he\'s healthy, to make sure he\'s happy ... Soon you won\'t be that cat in the snow, you\'ll be a mother cat, kittens all in tow .... no desire to leave those she feeds ... just nestling them, keeping them warm, weaning them into adulthood.
And that snow won\'t even appeal.
nasnye
nasnye

I CALL IT MY TUNNEL... I MUST BELIEVE THAT THINGS WILL GET BETTER.

HUGS!!!
N.