Was this a good idea?!?!

I am really struggling emotionally this week!!!!  Not sure why.  So many demands and under so much stress and pressure....I am second guessing myself in that maybe going back to school to further my education was a bad idea.  It's so much harder than I thought it would be.  I learned how self-critical I am.  This process has caused many tears, sleepless nights and anxiety attacks and ignited my depression, self-doubt and negative self talk.  Not to mention the relationship that I just ended which was a good thing. I prayed to get out of it because I knew it wasn't healthy and was leading me to places that I knew I did not want to go.  Although, he was a master manipulator, liar and cheat, I miss that false sense of support, "love" and security that I had. The way it ended was strange and so I had no closure which further adds to my depression as well as discovering the sick monster that he was.  UGH!!!! I cannot wait for this week to be over.  Not that it matters.  I'm certain next week will be just as bad.....hoping I am wrong about this!  #conflicted