was it a dream?
today makes 5 weeks since my loss. I got my period on Monday, which I was "hoping" for b'c I just want my body regulated again.
Nothing has changed much as far as how I feel - sad all the time, heavy hearted, but better and "ok" - whatever "ok" means at this point.
but the strangest thing is, I find myself wondering if this even happened at all. I mean, of course i KNOW it did - but it all feels like a dream. like a nightmare. like I imagined it all. it feels so long ago and it feels like yesterday.
Does anyone understand what I am saying?
Nothing has changed much as far as how I feel - sad all the time, heavy hearted, but better and "ok" - whatever "ok" means at this point.
but the strangest thing is, I find myself wondering if this even happened at all. I mean, of course i KNOW it did - but it all feels like a dream. like a nightmare. like I imagined it all. it feels so long ago and it feels like yesterday.
Does anyone understand what I am saying?
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Yes, I know how you are feeling. I am glad your period came and you didn\'t have to endure any other procedures to worsen the pain. I hope we can both wake up from our nightmares soon!
OMG I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND!!! I have been saying this exact same thing......I feel guilty and bad because I\'m wondering I\'m forgetting it all.....some days I feel like I was never pregnant and I never miscarried, like I dreamt it all or I read about it in some book. It\'s an awful feeling, isn\'t it? Yesterday was 6 weeks for me, and it feels so long ago, yet like yesterday. I am battling so many feelings and just want to be able to feel some joy and life again. I pray we both feel some peace soon. Huge hugs to you. You are so not alone! xoxo
I have never been in your situation, so I can\'t completely relate, but I can relate to horrible experiences feeling so unreal they were a dream or nightmare. I wish that\'s all it was friend. Thinking about you!
I understand...oh sweetie, big loving hugs! The first period after a loss is always so hard! I\'m sorry! XO
You are my kindred spirit. Tomorrow will be 6 weeks post D&C, and I haven\'t been able to stop crying today. Most days I feel okay, but there are those times that I can\'t make myself feel better...times when I just want my baby back and so desperately want to be pregnant again. It\'s so incredibly comforting to know that someone shares my feelings. I\'m praying for peace for us all tonight!
lizzy, indeed we are. I am sorry you are so sad and am right here with you. We have to be kind and patient with ourselves, as we heal from this horrible loss.
Hopeful - yes, that\'s exactly how I feel....guilty about \"forgetting\" though of course we\'re not, it is just hard to believe all of this has happened to us.
peace for us all, especially during the holidays, which i know will be hard for all of us.