Wanting more, but thankful for what I have

Well it's been 2 days of getting thing out in the open to my girl, she is still there for me mentally as we communicate on a daily basis , I really need her support, but gotta fix me first, so last night I explained my intentions of these programs I'm doing and doing when I leave rehab and explained they are for me to better me and that I want her to see the new me and not lose hope that we can rekindle what we had down the road, right now she won't tell me that she loves me after a serious 3yr relationship,  that hurts physically and emotionally, and brings me down, then I realize I gotta stay strong and focused to push through this, so we agreed when I get back in 19 days that we can meet for coffee and talk, I just wanna hold her and feel that love again and I'm determined to move mountains to make this happen she is my rock and saving grace that made me realize after 22 yrs of drinking I needed to stop, Yaya for me, 37 days sober and feeling great so on to the next step, I love my girl and kids more than anything in life, so on the winning path with God driving me all the way, positive and determination will take me far. L❤ve to the ones who helped get me here and as always , hugso to the one who is positive with the biggest heart I know and never met.