Wanting it to go Away

I DONT TRUST ANY OF MY FRIENDS. EXCEPT FOR ONE BUT HE LIVES IN ANOTHER STATE. I'VE BEEN LIED TO, BEEN TALKED ABOUT, BEEN BETRAYED, IM AT THE POINT where i just want to break down and cry in my bed. Why cant i find a nice circle group of friends? i've always been there for them, i've put up with their crap all these years, why am i getting treated this way? Why? I'm becoming more miserable living in this town being surrounded by negative people, i cant take it anymore. I want to move back home. All i want is a friend i can count on, someone who is there for me and will listen to me. We all want that dont we?