Wanting a change...

So yeah... I've been thinking (as my mind races these ideas popped out...) I was at work when this video came on and for a couple minutes I felt empowered... I saw the type of appearance I wanted to give off... The down fall is the confidence levels to pull it off...also the fact that I'm not sure it fit my age rage either...I know I'm 34...but I look 25... and under...  Yes I was robbed my childhood and a lot of my young adult years were stolen as well... The other issue is that I REALLY don't like people staring at me... Its hard to be out comfortably w/ constantly wondering wat sum1 is going to say... Ugh... Ultimately I think its just safer to stay as I am...  that way no questions no comments...