Wanting

I want some things to change in my life  but I’m scare to make it happen. I don’t like confronting the situation or issue I have. I’m scare of arguments and fighting, that’s why my life isn’t going no where. Sometime I feel like I’m happy and that’s enough but again I’m not happy. I’m scare to say the things I don’t like So I just let it hurt me. I know myself I need help but I can’t find the courage to get or ask for help. Anytime I try confronting my feelings I start to break down an cry. I cry I cry so much every time I talk, that I feel like an idiot.