want to call it quits

The last few days have been really bad for me. I am not to sure why, I know I am thinking about a lot of things to do with April and family events and if I want to risk going or if I should just stay away. I just want to be alone so I have been spacing myself from the world. But no one has really cared to notice. The biggest thing on my mind is what I want to live for, right now I just have the lack of caring to keep fighting. I would rather end everything and the nightmare would be just over with. I dont think I would be happy in the after life I just want to end this messed up life of pain and hurt. I just want to move on and it seems impossible to do it alive and with very little support and the feeling of just wanting to be alone... I just might be calling it quits.