Walking Wounded

The anniversary of my Husband's death is mid June.  I feel like the walking wounded.  I see the changes in my grief patterns, and I am not as weepy as I was, yet there is a numbness that has set in that seems to blanket me when I am not at work.  Everyday seems the same, never ending and certainly lonely.
I reach out to friends and they kindly text me or call me for a brief chat, yet their life is the same and mine is so vastly lonely.  Some of the worst words I can hear are "have a good night or hope you have a great weekend", I want to scream or slap them, and wonder how will I do that, when he is gone and all of them are doing what they do.  Don't get me wrong I have fantastic friends, but made a physical move the week my husband was diagnosised and now my support system is in another city.
Ready for this phase to end.

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Community LeaderShrn
Shrn

It\'s hard anticipating upcoming special days either personal or holidays. The memories are so acute and the loneliness of missing them stronger. Sending you a gentle hug. Sharon
legmft
legmft

Thank you for your response. I don\'t post often, because I don\'t get feedback, maybe I am doing something wrong.
I know you are right, yet . . . My friends are so kind, as is my family, yet I am the first to loose a spouse, and I hear the profound silence, when I imagine them trying to puzzle through what to say. Most times I just say at this moment I am fine. I hate this.