walking in the way of the spirit

It's so easy as a person to think you can control everything. To think you have to be 100% sure about everything and be independent and self confident, to think if you miss one step you are a failure.
But today, I need to remember to be still. App'ah is sending me so many signs that I need to stop it, that I need to just sit and wait. I know there's a lesson here for me but I feel lost. It's funny how city life makes you forget how to listen to what God is saying to you. I've done all I can and I've been kicking and screaming trying to force my will onto the world, and now I'm going to let it go and take a bubble bath. I know beyond a doubt there is a God, there is a father and a mother and God is going to show me the way. I don't know that it will be easy and I don't know if I am going to like it, but even if I don't there is a lesson to learn and an opportunity to grow, and I need to take it.
Crying is so, so, so good for the spirit sometimes. Love you all xoxo