Walking for Structure
Ivan is just telling me how good it is that I am doing my morning walk. I am glad for weight loss, (yeah right!) Arnie, good headspace for me, making my mind up to do something positive and doing it is all good.
It takes about 17 minutes and gets my little heart racing and boom booming. I wonder sometimes if i might keel over with a stroke or heart attack and who would take care of me then? These things can come out of a blue sky and rock your world to the bowels of the Earth... But I guess I've coped with everything else life has dished up and I would deal with that too.
mmmm 300 words eh Im hoping the Julia Cameron book will turn up at the library this week to flesh out for me the importance of Morning Pages and then we get on to the Artist's date as I recall.
I have also ordered a book from Amazon called Magical Tarot Mystical Tao. I've taken it out of the library several times. Bryan and I loved the poem for the Four of Wands which I should could will copy into here sometime. Another meditation practice?
A big tree has fallen across the garden in the big wind last night. A job for Ivan.
Do I need Prozac forever? Only one way to find out but Im not game or ready for that. Just wish I could come off the mood stabilizers. Multiple medications freak me out. The interactions....and who knows what life is like in my liver?
I wish I knew how many 300 words are....dont fancy counting back so Ill just keep going for a few more minutes.
My routine: tea in bed,shower some mornings-let myself off other mornings, toast and jam, walk, 300 words, quick check of DS, car to beach and feed ducks, ride to busstop, bus, K Rd coffee, smokes, work all pretty good then walk to Britomart train station, smoke and train and writie in my notebook and listen to MP3 then Ivan meets me and I come home to check emails and bank a/c etc dinner,news on TV and Ivan's news. Stay up till about midnight. bed read (meds make me sleepy),interspersed many cigarettes and Ivan sends me great emails at work.
Not enough reading but I am determined to read more on the bus and train. And what Dinah determines can and does happen.
When the student is ready the Teacher appears. Koon's comments give me a real buzz-its weird to write and know that I have an audience. His advice will be taken to heart and I will follow his suggestions. I want to have some topics to write about but maybe the top topic is what is oon my mind as I stat to write. Especially what I have been thinking about on my morning walk....?
I am so grateful that these two new things have come into my life.
That's all for today-sorry its all unstructured and I can't find much to say about any one topic-guess that's how it is for me though. Scattered, random, spasmodic, chaotic all over the place....within such an orderly routine as described above there is room for disorder in order.
Thanks for reading this Koon-I wish you a happy day.
PS Gosh you have done a lot of different studies, and you are so busy. I look forward to our continuing contacts.
Happy DS Hugs
Dinah
It takes about 17 minutes and gets my little heart racing and boom booming. I wonder sometimes if i might keel over with a stroke or heart attack and who would take care of me then? These things can come out of a blue sky and rock your world to the bowels of the Earth... But I guess I've coped with everything else life has dished up and I would deal with that too.
mmmm 300 words eh Im hoping the Julia Cameron book will turn up at the library this week to flesh out for me the importance of Morning Pages and then we get on to the Artist's date as I recall.
I have also ordered a book from Amazon called Magical Tarot Mystical Tao. I've taken it out of the library several times. Bryan and I loved the poem for the Four of Wands which I should could will copy into here sometime. Another meditation practice?
A big tree has fallen across the garden in the big wind last night. A job for Ivan.
Do I need Prozac forever? Only one way to find out but Im not game or ready for that. Just wish I could come off the mood stabilizers. Multiple medications freak me out. The interactions....and who knows what life is like in my liver?
I wish I knew how many 300 words are....dont fancy counting back so Ill just keep going for a few more minutes.
My routine: tea in bed,shower some mornings-let myself off other mornings, toast and jam, walk, 300 words, quick check of DS, car to beach and feed ducks, ride to busstop, bus, K Rd coffee, smokes, work all pretty good then walk to Britomart train station, smoke and train and writie in my notebook and listen to MP3 then Ivan meets me and I come home to check emails and bank a/c etc dinner,news on TV and Ivan's news. Stay up till about midnight. bed read (meds make me sleepy),interspersed many cigarettes and Ivan sends me great emails at work.
Not enough reading but I am determined to read more on the bus and train. And what Dinah determines can and does happen.
When the student is ready the Teacher appears. Koon's comments give me a real buzz-its weird to write and know that I have an audience. His advice will be taken to heart and I will follow his suggestions. I want to have some topics to write about but maybe the top topic is what is oon my mind as I stat to write. Especially what I have been thinking about on my morning walk....?
I am so grateful that these two new things have come into my life.
That's all for today-sorry its all unstructured and I can't find much to say about any one topic-guess that's how it is for me though. Scattered, random, spasmodic, chaotic all over the place....within such an orderly routine as described above there is room for disorder in order.
Thanks for reading this Koon-I wish you a happy day.
PS Gosh you have done a lot of different studies, and you are so busy. I look forward to our continuing contacts.
Happy DS Hugs
Dinah
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