walk by faith n i will be great =D

today i cried a litle i wont lie. i was sad. because i went to my sisters birthday dinner. n it got out of control , suddenly everyone was talking to loud n the voices started coming in all seperate! all loud and i felt the panic attack coming in . man it was bad, there was nothing making me nervous or anxious, but still there i was geting an anxiety attack, about to start. feeling overwhelmed. so i stood up told my husband, i felt like i was gona have an anxiety attack n he made me take deep breathes. i went to the bathroom, cried a tiny biiit. prayed n beegged got to help me out. begged him to take care of me. pleaaseee. and i went back , a little shaken up but i did great =D i managed just fine the rest of the night was great. it was weird but i handled it .=D all i need is strength! n i have it. i am a very strong woman. and wen i ffeel my strength is weakened i pray to god=D i am blessed n though when anxious i feel down , and like there's no hope for a second. and like i wana break. i hold on a couple more minutes. those minutes, are worth while because its when i realise everything is going to be ok, we have a choice give in. or crawl out of the darkness. and i will always, always, fight my way out...
i doo admit. it is also good to cry for a little ,let allll that emotion out. but just for a little. then smile =D