Waking up

Well about losing my husband, he was out the other night making extra money and called and said he wasn't coming home because he felt he could never make me happy again, it crushed me. But he did come home and I see that I have neglected him. I have been so lost in self pity and this depression that I let down the ones that mean the world to me, my husband and my kids. After a long deep conversation I came to see they have needed me and my body was there but my heart and mind was not. So I am picking myself up off this floor dusting myself off and taking my life back. I know my parents would be very disappointed that I let this happen to myself. Thank you everyone for you kind words