waiting waiting.

today is the 10th of february my anxiety is flying and our anniversary is on valentines day it is been 4 years i never celebrate our special day with my hubby bcz of my stupid anxiety i feel bad for him it is been a week he is been asking me to go to a party that all our friends are going too i get panic overwhelmed i cant be around people now.i dont know what to do specialy if i feel on saturdat the way i feel today there is no way i can deal with it.