waiting for peace
i am in the process of fixing up my house so i can sell it. i cant cope with all the credit card debt. and the crime in my neighborhood has gone up, i have been burglarized 3 times. ineed to get out of here. fixing up the house is alot of work. i really dont have the energy to do it all. but hiring peoplle is so expensive and half the ones i have had come in did terrible work. it is very frustrating. and depressing. i feel like i have been under this weight of my failed ebay business, and change in management at work, and buget crunch for the past 1-2 years. it is over bearing. i need to get out from under it. i cant cope with all this tension and stress. i am trying to do the best i can to cope, but sometimes i feel like i cant do it. i know everyone is struggling, so then i feel guilty for feeling bad, because i know others have it worse. i feel like an emotional depressed mess. i dont want to be stressed and depressed anymore. i want to be free, ineed to be free, and i deserve to be free. God (if u exist) help me!
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you are very good at articulating your feelings. one reads, and feels a host of emotions from your words. i understand the overwhelmed feeling, and the feeling like an \"emotional depressed mess\". so sad that our similarities have to be things like this. i\'m still in the process of reading your journal, but i\'m hoping that things eased up a bit for you.