Waiting
7 days of Provera now just waiting for my period...
I am worried because I took 100mg of clomid and it did not work this time. 50mg kinda worked, 100mg worked the first time, 100mg the second time (this most recent time) I did not get a normal period.
I don't really hang out with any of my friends anymore, I get tired of talking about all the work that I have to go through, just to do what my body should do naturally. On the other hand, I get frustrated if they don't ask me how things are going, like they don't understand or care about how difficult this is for me. Also, I don't want to make new firends because what if they get that "good news" and I am stuck fighting feelings of jealousy and wanting to be happy for others....
I find that most days I am fine, but every now and then, it just hits me. This wave of sadness and the thoughts of what if it never happens, why do I have to be the one that this happens to. It usually passes rather quickly but it is so unsettling.
Life is not always what we dream, but it is the struggles that make us strong.
I am worried because I took 100mg of clomid and it did not work this time. 50mg kinda worked, 100mg worked the first time, 100mg the second time (this most recent time) I did not get a normal period.
I don't really hang out with any of my friends anymore, I get tired of talking about all the work that I have to go through, just to do what my body should do naturally. On the other hand, I get frustrated if they don't ask me how things are going, like they don't understand or care about how difficult this is for me. Also, I don't want to make new firends because what if they get that "good news" and I am stuck fighting feelings of jealousy and wanting to be happy for others....
I find that most days I am fine, but every now and then, it just hits me. This wave of sadness and the thoughts of what if it never happens, why do I have to be the one that this happens to. It usually passes rather quickly but it is so unsettling.
Life is not always what we dream, but it is the struggles that make us strong.
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I understand. Nobody wants to talk about it or ask me about our difficulties, yet I also don\'t want to talk and dwell on it either. Unfortunately I have gotten the news several times... from family members, not friends. Sometimes those are the hardest.
I go through the same roller coaster... some times I\'m so busy I don\'t have time to think about it but then randomly it will just pop in my head. I wonder if there is one day when I won\'t think about the \"what ifs\".
Best of luck. If you ever need to talk or vent just send me a message :)
Isn\'t that the truth...wanting friends/family (who do know your going through this) to ask -even just a \"how are you doing today\" just to know they are thinking of you and on the other hand if they do ask at that moment in time when you don\'t feel like talking about it. But I do think it makes us feel better if they do ask and if we don\'t want to talk about it at that time we can just easily change the subject! I find myself even getting frustrated with my husband about this - which I know I shouldn\'t. I find myself trying to think what I\'m thankful for since Thanksgiving is jut around the corner - and I know I\'m so THANKFUL for all the women in this support group because I actually feel like someone \"gets\" me! Keep your chin up...:)