Visitors and stuff
well its been 9 month since the world changed for me. I was sat down the other day and thinking when i last had a visitor to the house and it turns out that the last time i had a visitor to the house was before Debs Funeral a week before christmas. it now seems that unless i phone or visit people then its not going to happen. people say to me we will have to come down and see you see that you are ok and eating properly and the like. though however it still has not happend. im getting used to the solitude. though i do find myself hating the weekends. roll on monday back to work and then surounded by people and have the noise and hustle and bustle of pthers.
Not sure if i have upset people by not wallowing. so far have managed to keep my emotions in check (not the best thing to do i know but it gets me through the days)
Still having trouble sleeping in our bed though have stopped falling asleep on the sofa.
Feel like im waiting for somthing to happen. there is a constant feeling of somthing around the corner. not sure if its somthing good or badand not sure that i would recognise it when i see it.
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Not sure if i have upset people by not wallowing. so far have managed to keep my emotions in check (not the best thing to do i know but it gets me through the days)
Still having trouble sleeping in our bed though have stopped falling asleep on the sofa.
Feel like im waiting for somthing to happen. there is a constant feeling of somthing around the corner. not sure if its somthing good or badand not sure that i would recognise it when i see it.
Ramble over
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People won\'t come to visit unless you make it clear to them that you want them to visit. I commented to friends once early on that I wished people would call or visit, and they said they were giving me my \"space\" -- I had to tell them that space was all I had left since Cliff died, I didn\'t need more \"space!\" If you don\'t wnat them at your home, invite friends out for Sunday dinner at the pub or something - it doesn\'t have to be a big deal, in fact, baby steps are usually easier to get through.
The anxious/anticipation feeling is common. I still get that at times.
Love and Hugs,
Martha