VISION FROM GOD?
Letter to God,
Please God let me have some progress with just one dream. Please, please just one!
I have had so many dreams that run through my head every day for years upon years. I am filled with rage and anger that only 5% of them have come true!
I am never at rest, tormented by all,the dreams I have pulsating through my chest. Why did you give me such passion if I am not to have them?
I have about 30'years of experience working with grassroots committees that start with a few people chatting, to an incredible life saving program that breathes life into torn and damaged people. I know it can be done.
I just realized I have met 4 women in the last 2 years who I think will actually be friends with me and not abandon me. They understand disabilities. They know how to,work with others, write, educate and have deep,compassion for those who,suffer
I want to ask them to form a committee with a goal of writing educational articles about M.E./CFS to be given to newspapers and media outlets.. I know how these things go. No one can decide on times to meet. People get busy. People's priorities change. Then I get SO DISCOURAGED and resent all the effort I've put in.
I feel that I am ready to,have YOU GUIDE this process! I am envisioning these 4 women meeting together and sharing their unique abilities to establish HOW WE WILL DO THIS. I am saying that I am willing to,surrender control of it. I CAN'T DO IT- if I try I just get frustrated and very, very ill for a long time! I am scared.
Please let me have this one tiny dream. I am willing to wait 2years before I judge if it is working or not.
I am so,excited by this, I feel sick!! The media MUST KNOW ABOUT OUR SUFFERING!!!
A few days ago I went for a massage to a new Spa. I prayed that my mtg with the therapist would be blessed. I ended up telling her about my dream, and she wants to join the committee!!
She is a Polish/Ukranian woman who is very close to people who have such severe FM back home that a few have moved into a nursing home! I couldn't believe it!
Please God don't break my heart again. So many dreams ended up terribly, my strong emotions only spent to find incredible rejection and pain. I will ask my DS friends to pray for this committee. They are gentle, spiritual souls who also feel deeply about these issues. Give me peace.
Please God let me have some progress with just one dream. Please, please just one!
I have had so many dreams that run through my head every day for years upon years. I am filled with rage and anger that only 5% of them have come true!
I am never at rest, tormented by all,the dreams I have pulsating through my chest. Why did you give me such passion if I am not to have them?
I have about 30'years of experience working with grassroots committees that start with a few people chatting, to an incredible life saving program that breathes life into torn and damaged people. I know it can be done.
I just realized I have met 4 women in the last 2 years who I think will actually be friends with me and not abandon me. They understand disabilities. They know how to,work with others, write, educate and have deep,compassion for those who,suffer
I want to ask them to form a committee with a goal of writing educational articles about M.E./CFS to be given to newspapers and media outlets.. I know how these things go. No one can decide on times to meet. People get busy. People's priorities change. Then I get SO DISCOURAGED and resent all the effort I've put in.
I feel that I am ready to,have YOU GUIDE this process! I am envisioning these 4 women meeting together and sharing their unique abilities to establish HOW WE WILL DO THIS. I am saying that I am willing to,surrender control of it. I CAN'T DO IT- if I try I just get frustrated and very, very ill for a long time! I am scared.
Please let me have this one tiny dream. I am willing to wait 2years before I judge if it is working or not.
I am so,excited by this, I feel sick!! The media MUST KNOW ABOUT OUR SUFFERING!!!
A few days ago I went for a massage to a new Spa. I prayed that my mtg with the therapist would be blessed. I ended up telling her about my dream, and she wants to join the committee!!
She is a Polish/Ukranian woman who is very close to people who have such severe FM back home that a few have moved into a nursing home! I couldn't believe it!
Please God don't break my heart again. So many dreams ended up terribly, my strong emotions only spent to find incredible rejection and pain. I will ask my DS friends to pray for this committee. They are gentle, spiritual souls who also feel deeply about these issues. Give me peace.
Replies
Ah, Pouty. You have this dream! I so totally understand how you want to be a part of spreading the word about our illness, and helping to educate people about. I also understand that you have training in this area, and even people lined up that you know would do a good job at helping your dream to come true. I think it\'s wonderful....this dream!
You say in your prayer that you are ready to let GOD control the circumstances. Indeed! that would be the only way it would work. You know, and I know that we don\'t have the strength to do these things with our limited energy and resources. But God can take those limitations and grow them into something wonderful.
I will pray that He will let you have your dream. In His time and for His glory. I do believe you have wonderful intentions, and I believe you are very talented and would do a wonderful job in fulfilling this dream!!
Now, If you can, let go....and let God!! And He will show you what steps to take next. xo
Pouty, I am wondering if any of these people have cfs? How can they really relate and explain to others without the experience.Maybe I\'m off track here because I\'m so crashed at present. Have you spoken to them and are they interested ? I\'m afraid for you, I don\'t want you to have this dream smashed and be left disappointed.I think it is a wonderful idea and would love to see it happen, just worried for you and care.I prefer Darlas positive response .
Yes Aussie, your concerns are very valid! Thx for caring for my well being. I am very critical of people who don\'t understand cfs and only have these friendships because they get it. At least 2 have the illness, one is trained to work with the disabled and the other is a \"personal support worker\" P.S.W.
The premise for joining is that we feel it is urgent for gov\'t funding to happen soon, so any lack of understanding of M.E. will not wash well with anyone who doesn\'t get it. Hope your crash is short! Xxoo
The first thought that came to my mind when I read this was a verse from the Bible: \"Where there is no vision, the people perish.....\" Proverbs 29:18. I think it\'s great that the massage therapist has already stepped forward to offer practical help to you on your journey to help people in need. Hang on to your dream of helping those suffering and I\'ll be praying others step in to help you along the way.