Viral Load is in......

After much anticipation over the holidays, the doctors office called me today to give the result of my viral load test.  I knew the minute she said my name that it wasn't good news.  "Mr. Taylor, your body is not responding to the treatment as we hoped it would.  You should be at a viral load of 0.  The doctor said not to worry about it, keep taking your medications as directed an we'll test you again at 12 weeks." I was floored.  I had to ask ner twice to give me the numbers.  I went from a 320,000 to 324 (with no zeros after it).  She told me that my body is fiighting the treatment and we'll just hope the medication does its job.  What kind of fucking news is that? what a day.  I have never had a doctor tell me 'we'll just hope the medicine does its job....'  Thats like hearing 'ooops' as you are having a procedure done.  I'm so sick of the healthcare in this country.  What ever happened to bedside manner? Too top it all of, when I had my biopsy done, after the biopsy was done, they wheeled me into a recovery room.  This room had finger nail and toenail clippings on the floor, dirty rags hanging in the bathroom and lets not mention the fact that it took me almost 4 hours to get a Lortab that my mother and fiance had to bug the nurses for every 20 minutes. We filed a complaint with the hospital administration as well as the head nurse for the floor and the Tulsa Health Department.  We recieved several phone calls and apologies and even a letter from the head nurse saying how sorry she was and how everything was corrected.  The Health Department said there was nothing they could do.  About a week later I get a bill for the biopsy that was unreal. 45.00 for a damn Lortab?  I can get one on the streets for 5.00 all day long.  750.00 for an Operating Room?  I was in a fucking lab.  I called my insurance and am in the process of filing a grievence over the claim and told them myself not to pay it.  They did anyway.  Well, to make a ling story short, I get a bill from the same hospital that screwed up and sent numerous apology letters to me for 561.00.  You have got to be kidding me! Are they smoking dope?  I am not paying SHIT!  NOT ONE FUCKING PENNY! They couldn't  have one damn dime of my hard earned money if they came begging at my front door!  FUCK THAT.So now I am battling two dragons.  The Hep c and the hospital.  Fuck both of you guys! You are both going down if I have to die trying.....! I'd rather go broke fighting this thing to the end than let them treat one more person the way they treated me. They have screwed with the wrong hombre!  Okay....I am done venting..... I can't lie.  I am scared shitless this treatment wont work. I kid you not. I am really scared.  Not just for me.  For my son, my fiance and my whole family.  When I found out the results today, I experienced my first true 'riba-rage' episode.   I got into a fight......... with a cinder block wall it kicked my ass...... Still not smoking. almost 2 weeks now. Shot eight this friday. what a day................