Vincent
So many thoughts of Vincent on my mind tonight... So much sorrow... My life is not and shall never be the same...
I think of his last weeks with me, and I know I contributed to his death... The guilt is overwhelming...
There was one thing I could have done to prolong his life, and I did not follow through... Despite the consequences... I know it in my heart and there are no words of comfort which could suffice...
Just one thing to keep him from drowning in his own breath... He was suffocating... Dying right beside me, and I took no measures to utilize the one thing I knew which would bring him health and life...
I feel so very alone... As if this world is so very big, and I am invisible...
My heart is torn to shreds... It no longer exists...
There will never be another love in my life such as Vincent...
It is impossible...
I think of his last weeks with me, and I know I contributed to his death... The guilt is overwhelming...
There was one thing I could have done to prolong his life, and I did not follow through... Despite the consequences... I know it in my heart and there are no words of comfort which could suffice...
Just one thing to keep him from drowning in his own breath... He was suffocating... Dying right beside me, and I took no measures to utilize the one thing I knew which would bring him health and life...
I feel so very alone... As if this world is so very big, and I am invisible...
My heart is torn to shreds... It no longer exists...
There will never be another love in my life such as Vincent...
It is impossible...
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Everyone has bad times when it comes to missing our furry friends..no matter how much time passes.But you have to remember that vincent is always with you in your heart and is watching you all the time to make sure you\'re taking care of yourself and trying to be happy. We have to keep on living no matter what and in time-when you least expect it..you may come across another furry friend that really needs YOU and you will be there for them :)
D: yikes... maybe it is time to get a different type of pet have you had a tortoise or gold fish before? My wishes for you to feel better soon!
annettearizona.... Thank you for your kind words... This is not an experience I would wish upon anyone aside from one who cannot comprehend the absolute love and passion one may have for an animal\'s soul... In truth, that individuals does not deserve to experience that measure of intensity as they truly have no heart... annecleaver... That was a completely horrible thing to say... Words I would never use when one is in extreme pain...
anneccleaver.. . . is it possible for you to have empathy? If not, seek psychiatric counseling.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PsxfvwuCqxo
I know this is about Van goh, but sometimes our furbaby\'s are our best friends, totally accepting and loving, never hurting always by our side. I have had 4 great dogs in my life. Only one passed from age the rest had reasons that caused them to pass. 2were my companion dogs, Baby D was chosen a week after my baby Kita passed. I was told by my doctor to start training another as soon as possible. But it felt like going through the motions for the first few weeks. But he\'s all that now. At almost 8 years I protect him as much as he does me. My heart Lula. When you are so connected and invested, a turtle will not do for the comfort. My baby D is as much for my physical disabilities as my medical. Now with John gone, I need him more than ever,
Hugs, The only way I could handle the loss of Kita, was by thinking that she gave me what god meant for me to learn through that time. Her work was extraordinary on that. Anne I know you were just trying to help, so I understand the comment. But for some of us our babies come with 4 paws of love.